Turning 30
In less than 4 months, I'll be turning 30. It's the only thing I think about these days. And I think about it with mixed feelings. More sad feelings than happy ones.
I always thought I'd have achieved so much more before turning 30... But I guess I made too many wrong turns. Too many. And now, I'm here and I want to cover all the ground in 3 months. How is that even possible?
My husband thinks I'm over-thinking this issue. But I'm thinking "What do men know? They never worry about anything until it is about to take their lives."
Honestly, I'm trying to stay positive, speak God's words over my life, not compare myself to other people...but it doesn't seem to be working much.
Well, if I keep going at this rate, I might turn 40 and still not achieve anything. So, I'll start now. With facing my fear of failure. And try things out one after the other and hopefully achieve one at a time...I will TRRRY to not look over my shoulders to see how well or not my friends are doing because comparison is the thief of joy.
I will keep trying. I will keep trying. I promise.Not because I can but because the One in me is strong enough to help me.
Love.
I always thought I'd have achieved so much more before turning 30... But I guess I made too many wrong turns. Too many. And now, I'm here and I want to cover all the ground in 3 months. How is that even possible?
My husband thinks I'm over-thinking this issue. But I'm thinking "What do men know? They never worry about anything until it is about to take their lives."
Honestly, I'm trying to stay positive, speak God's words over my life, not compare myself to other people...but it doesn't seem to be working much.
Well, if I keep going at this rate, I might turn 40 and still not achieve anything. So, I'll start now. With facing my fear of failure. And try things out one after the other and hopefully achieve one at a time...I will TRRRY to not look over my shoulders to see how well or not my friends are doing because comparison is the thief of joy.
I will keep trying. I will keep trying. I promise.Not because I can but because the One in me is strong enough to help me.
Love.
I felt exactly the same way when i was to turn 30 myself, and it had nothing to do with gender. it had everything to do with desiring to make a mark. I couldn't sleep for days, and I couldn't put my fingers on any achievement. I felt so unfulfilled, that I physically lost weight. Stay in Gods word and consider the possibility of your being a great person who does awesome things only. that positive energy will generate positive results- Look at road worthy. I gave birth to something new by taking some time out to reflect, gather my thoughts and seek Gods face. Check out this song- 'Walking shoes' by Mali Music. Its got a message you will relate with. and for the record, you are doing great already.
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ReplyDeletewow. well. what can i say? the big 30 is here...and what have we done with 29? lol. u need to forget urself, literally. forget ur wrong turns, ur right turns and ur left turns. none of that matters to God. if u made 'better' decisions earlier in life u may have had the chance to boast. but God dont like ugly. and boasting is just ugly. buh he doesnt want u sad and regretful either. so leave all that behind and take what He is offering RIGHT NOW. God is loving u aggressively; dont get in the way. stop TRRRYING and just believe Him and yield to Him. read psalm 46:1-5 in all translations possible. anything u want to do, u can only do thru Him. LOVE!
ReplyDeletewow. well. what can i say? the big 30 is here...and what have we done with 29? lol. u need to forget urself, literally. forget ur wrong turns, ur right turns and ur left turns. none of that matters to God. if u made 'better' decisions earlier in life u may have had the chance to boast. but God dont like ugly. and boasting is just ugly. buh he doesnt want u sad and regretful either. so leave all that behind and take what He is offering RIGHT NOW. God is loving u aggressively; dont get in the way. stop TRRRYING and just believe Him and yield to Him. read psalm 46:1-5 in all translations possible. anything u want to do, u can only do thru Him. LOVE!
ReplyDeleteBless God am still 23
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